Foraging for Plants, Music, & Family

We toted the guitar out in the summer heat, after our beach vacation, while we picked blackberries. Silvia’s dress snagged on the thorns. I was writing about a heartache that constantly pulses reminders because of the realization that there’s no way to make up for a past that’s never coming back. I felt the pull of my characters, especially Robin, her confusion over both memory loss and memory resurfacIng, her dreams to rise above her family’s addictions, and the fire in her heart and her pen to write folk songs.

Image Title: Snagged Pickin’. Photos by Zoe Morris and Shana Thornton. Final image by Shana Thornton.

Foraging for plants and folklore, folk music, and family secrets are themes in the Family Medicine Wheel series, and they especially show up in my next book, Ripe for the Pickin’ (Forthcoming March 2022). In the first book, Poke Sallet Queen and the Family Medicine Wheel (2015), young Robin learns to forage for plants from her dad and other relatives. She also meets the friends who become her bandmates. In the next book, Ripe for the Pickin’, Robin shares more about foraging when she was growing up, and she begins her songwriting partnerships. Robin also makes a remarkable discovery in this book and that allows her to learn about her ancestors.

For the past seven years, I’ve been actively researching plants for the book, Ripe for the Pickin’. The research is a big part of my life, and my family usually participates. While we were out picking plants one afternoon, I asked our younger daughter, Silvia, if we could take photos for the book. I wanted them for inspiration. I also asked our older daughter, Zoe, if she would take some of the photos, too. These images are some of the photos we took, and they have been layered, and some even look quilted together.

Title: Pickin’ Tea. Photos by Zoe Morris. Final image by Shana Thornton

Eerily similar to the best ideas in the book is the life that I live:

“Is this the peppery chickweed?” Silvia asks me. A fluffy type grows by the river and has a stronger flavor than the more straggly plants nearer to our house.

She and I pick wild violets for tea every spring. This became the inspiration for a chapter of the book called “Backyard Spring,” and then it inspired a song. I crafted one like Robin might for her band, and I added it to the book. Writing songs was fun, and so different from narrative that I wanted to do it again. I tried. Ohhhhhhhh, I like Robin Ballard and her songwriting journals. I helped her to fill them up.

Silvia eats wood sorrel year round where it stays warm and green close to the house. This became the inspiration for a chapter called “Cowbird Blues” and another song.

We pick the creeping charlie leaves that grow under blackberry canes, and then we pick blackberry leaves for tea, too. And, you might have guessed already…another chapter called “Blackberry Winter Whistlin’ Tune” and another song…

This got us on a songwriting streak. And, I’m in love with it…

I was daydreaming one afternoon while placing images together. I don’t know what compelled me to choose the images or arrange them, but I liked the final result when I stopped my creative daydreaming. This final image contains four photographs with three of them placed on an image of the interior of the Frist Art Museum.

Image Title: Plant Music Pickin’ Compilation. Photos by Shana Thornton, Zoe Morris, and Terry Morris.
Final image by Shana Thornton

I enjoy the creativity that the books inspire in my family’s everyday life. We have a cabinet full of tea, a drying rack overflowing with leaves and flowers, and an experimental garden of wild plants, heirlooms, and seeds given to me by family and friends. We water the plants. We drink the tea. We sing.

Right now, as I finish this blog, someone is playing the piano and trying to write a song in the living room, probably Terry. I can hear Silvia singing from upstairs, her voice drifting off while she makes up words and when she finds them, it rises again. From the kitchen, I can hear the water boiling in the kettle for someone’s tea, probably Zoe’s.

Read more about the books here.

Art of Layering

Art is meditative and transformative for me. Even if I stare for a long time, the experience is active within me. Moving through a museum or a gallery, gazing at a painting, waiting to view artwork, standing at a distance to see more clearly, and viewing a sculpture with someone else–all of that is more of an experience than the passive idea of watching or looking at something casually. I try to imagine painters on scaffolding when I see an immense canvas stretching up toward the ceiling. I stoop and squint at the tiny forms in a contemporary sculpture exhibit. There is not a way to duplicate the feeling of scale on a computer-generated tour of a museum, and yet, I encourage online tours and know they benefit so many people.

I enjoy not only going to see artwork in exhibitions, but the art that I view often becomes part of my own creative process. In the exhibitions that permit me to do so, I take photographs of the artwork on display as well as the space where the exhibition takes place. Later, back at home, in the middle of the night, or when I am parked in a line of cars waiting to pick up one of my daughters, I layer the images. The act of layering images pushes my brain into a new creative space and actually helps me to write imagery in my books. I don’t often share my visual processes, other than a photo of places where I run and that sort of thing on Instagram (IG). I did enjoy layering nature and yoga images for a series on IG, but otherwise, I don’t usually share these images and how they inspire me. I’d like to change that and share some of them on my blog sometimes.

This series of images, the most recent I’ve created, uses photos I took from the recent exhibitions at The Frist Art Museum in Nashville: “American Art Deco: Designing for the People 1918-1939” (ended January 2, 2021) and “Medieval Bologna: Art for a University City” (exhibit up until Jan 31).

Immediately, I was shocked to notice a coincidence between the Art Deco exhibition and my new book–that I actually wrote the dates of 1919-1939, in the novel, Ripe for the Pickin’ (forthcoming 2022), as one of the primary time periods. As my friend and I entered the Art Deco exhibition space, the sequined gold flapper dress made me think about my own character’s gold pageant dress in the first book of the series, Poke Sallet Queen & the Family Medicine Wheel. Robin and her aunt discover the dress in a Nashville store where they rummage through boxes of designer clothes. In another room of the Art Deco exhibit, I swooned over the fan, as it reminded me of Miss Emy, Robin’s grandmother, who carries a fan everywhere and does not stereotypically “flutter” it, but rather uses it as a judge might wield a gavel. Naturally, I thought of putting together a picture I took of the dress with one of the fan. Unfortunately, I cannot find the titles or artists/designers of these two pieces on the online guide for the exhibition.

I layered my own images with pictures I took at the exhibit, too. Photo 2 is my reflection in the Spartan Bluebird Radio during the exhibit juxtaposed with a forest where I ran this summer and which was inspiration for part of the next book’s setting. Radios are a part of the story since Robin is in a folk band, and I wanted to imagine that one of the characters, maybe her relative, had one of those bluebird radios. I also like that this dates the radio and me, as I’m wearing a mask because they are required in The Frist.

The radio: Walter Dorwin Teague, designer (American, 1883–1960); Sparks-Withington Company, manufacturer (Jackson, Michigan, founded 1900). Sparton Bluebird Radio (Model 566), 1934. Wood, glass, and metal, 14 3/4 x 14 5/8 x 6 in. Collection Kirkland Museum of Fine & Decorative Art, Denver, 2004.1850.

Photo 3 is a photo I took of a Steuben Glass bowl that contained Jimson Weed by Georgia O’Keeffe, and I layered it with a photo I took of Paul T Frankl’s Modernique Clock. I often write about plants and time, and the confusion of the psyche in trying to reconcile human constructs regarding schedules and nature’s own rhythms and shifts. Plants connect the characters in this book series through generations. After I put the two pictures together, the result reminded me of an Alice in Wonderland-type of image, too.

Of course, to create these images, I am using copyrighted works, but they are my images of those works, and I am not selling, duplicating, or distributing the images, so they don’t infringe upon the original works of art. I’m also citing those original artists. My layered images don’t even come close to using mastery at a level of the original artists/designers, but they do fulfill an artistic purpose for my fiction-writing. (See this website and/or a lawyer for the rules of legally appropriating and distributing copyrighted artworks).

The clock: Paul T. Frankl, designer (American, born Austria, 1887–1958); Warren Telechron Company, manufacturer (Ashland, Massachusetts, 1926–1992). Modernique Clock, 1928. Chromium-plated and enameled metal, molded Bakelite, and brush-burnished silver, 7 3/4 x 6 x 3 1/2 in. Collection Kirkland Museum of Fine & Decorative Art, Denver, Gift of Michael Merson, 2010.0670.

The bowl: Steuben Glass bowl with Jimson Weed image, 1938 Glass, 14 inches in diameter. Georgia O’Keeffe Museum. Gift of Mrs. Flora C. Crichton 1997.13.1Designer: Georgia O’Keeffe. Clear glass bowl with Jimson Weed etched in center from design

 Finally, I liked the snail cocktail picks from the Art Deco exhibit layered with an illumined manuscript from Medieval Bologna. There was no connection to my story. I simply like the idea of the slow passage of time symbolized by the snail and the old age of the manuscript.

Nothing compares to the experience of looking at the artwork, standing in front of it, taking in the scale of it, noticing the texture, focusing on the colors and form, how it shows itself in the space. However, I do enjoy this process of layering and creating even more meaning for myself.

I don’t have the details about the snail cocktail picks or the illuminated manuscript, but here are links to all the information online that The Frist Art Museum offers and online tours:

Art Deco Exhibition links

Medieval Bologna Exhibition links

The Georgia O’Keeffe Steuben Glass bowl

The Slant of a Place

Short Fiction by Shana Thornton

Author’s Note: Recently, I found a copy of my first published short story, ”The Slant of a Place.” While none of these characters has yet to appear in the Family Medicine Wheel series (Poke Sallet series), this story is set in Granville and these characters are part of the town. This Granville is a fictional place in Tennessee, though it probably bears resemblances to many small towns across the state. I wrote it in tribute to my great grandmother, but it is fiction. I want to share it here on my blog because I do see the formations of the novels I would eventually write. I also appreciate my growth as a writer, and since those back issues when it was originally published are no longer available, I want to reprint it here. (And who knows…maybe in the future one of these characters will find her way into the novels in the series.)

First published in The Smoking Poet, 2008. First reading at the Clarksville Customs House Museum and Cultural Center, 2008.

The Slant of a Place

So, the state finally took Hattie’s house back today and all the birds are gone.  

​Hattie Wheeler was born here in Granville and raised on the north side of the river known as Craggy Hope Ridge.  We call the south side of our town The Knobs.  Neither side seems different from the other one except for the trailer park located on the backside of The Knobs.  Otherwise, both sides of Granville always shared hollows, steep bluffs, winding roads, and cow pastures.  ​

​Hattie lived on a crooked road known as Shake-rag to folks on the Ridge.  The biggest curvy patch on Shake-rag is called Devil’s elbow, and that’s where Hattie’s property meets the road.  Her house sat back on a hill above the road like all the homes on Shake-rag, which cut into the land and lined up the mailboxes for Adler Flatt.  He was the postman on the Ridge for forty-two years and said that in all those days of delivering mail, Hattie always walked down her gravel driveway to meet him at the mailbox.

​“I’ve never even looked inside Hattie’s mailbox,” Adler said while a group played dominoes in front of the drugstore.  “I don’t know if it opens.”

​Bob Loftis slapped down a domino and looked up.  “That mailbox works just fine,” he told us.  “Me and Bobby Jr. leave the squirrels we shoot in there for Ms. Wheeler.  We wrap them up so they don’t mess up her mailbox.  She trades us for the preserves and soup she makes.  We take the jars she leaves in the mailbox, replace them with squirrels, and put the flag up.”

​Bob wasn’t the only one in town trading for Hattie’s food.  She had an old canning cellar and stocked it full every year.  That’s the way she survived and made a living for her and Albert, her son.  She traded and sold her jars of food to people on the Ridge.  Eventually, the news of Hattie’s canning spread to neighboring counties.  Most people didn’t spend time canning anymore; that was for the old-timers, but everybody ate Hattie’s food and wanted more.  Her canning cellar brightened when the door to the outside swung open.  Light bounced off colorful jars stacked on the dusty, plank shelves around the room.  The jars looked like antique science fiction with swollen, bulbous vegetables, some floating with fibrous tentacles, others smeared against the glass sides, some sloshing when the door banged against the shelf.  The jars were filled with slimy pickled okra, snapping turtle cucumbers with a hot pepper catch, punished beets beneath swollen tomatoes, celery tangy vegetable soup, sticky apple butter beside seedy blackberries, and the smart dull blueberry jam. 

​Junior Wheeler, Hattie’s husband, died of tuberculosis when Albert was young.  Hattie inherited what was once his family’s land.  When Junior died, the family lived in a narrow house on the hill above Devil’s Elbow.  The house was red with a tilted porch stretching across the front.  Its shiny, reflective roof was sheltered by an oak and a maple on either side.  While the Wheeler family had electricity, they didn’t have running water.  Instead, they used a well and an outhouse.  

​As a young boy, Albert roamed the town, learning to play banjos and pianos from anyone willing to teach him.  In exchange, he repaired doors, plastered walls, and painted barns.  Most folks think Albert retreated to music after Junior died.  In actuality, we know his inspiration came from the birds.      

​The most enchanting thing about Hattie’s place has been the birds.  In a field behind the house, Hattie used the old Wheeler tobacco barn to raise chickens and guineas.  The peacocks pranced across the grass among smaller wooden coops.  Wild turkeys usually crossed her land twice a day.  Hawks, cardinals, grackle, and chickadees claimed the woodlands that bordered her property.  Even further back, ducks ruled an old pond.  She learned to raise fowl from her mother, who had a talent for taming even the wild feathers.  Hattie’s mother imitated mating calls, chirps, and songs.  They say she was such a birdbrain, her daughter turned out to look like one.  Hattie was a skinny, white chicken with piercing blue-black eyes and snowy shoulder-length hair.  She kept the sides of her thin hair pulled up in little plastic barrettes.  When she smiled, her two front teeth were slightly bucked.  Her pointed nose and lips led her body forward when she walked.

​Hattie kept their place looking nice.  She whizzed the grass shorter by swinging a metal blade into the sun.  Her flowers, fluffed in yellows, pinks, and reds, bordered the small house so it wore ruffled petticoats of daffodils, hollyhocks, marigolds, and zinnias throughout the spring and summer months.  When we went to her house to buy preserves and vegetables, Hattie always met us in the yard and asked us to follow her into the house.  Even though it was little more than a shack, she insisted on inviting her customers inside to share a coke cola.  Of course, Hattie didn’t call anybody a customer.  We were guests in a house with numerous floors on what should have been one.  Albert patched holes with odd planks and boards through the decades.  Hattie didn’t act like she cared or noticed.  But to us, everything was tilted.  The small television leaned into the corner.  One foot of the couch dangled above the floorboard, while the other was grounded solidly.  We became dominoes if too many crowded onto the couch.  The floor creaked beneath our weight.  Only the corner with the radio and record player was level.  Hattie kept the radio tuned in to Acuff’s WSM radio show and the needle spinning Bill Monroe all day and well into the evening. 

​After the coke cola, we followed her out back through the screen door to the canning cellar.  There, we filled our arms and bags.  Before leaving, everyone stood with their arms full of Hattie’s jars.  She held the baby on her hip if you had one.  We gazed out over the field at the peacocks, hoping to glimpse their fans.  The mating call of those peacocks sent chills tingling up our spines and across our skulls—a big laughter escaped from a deep and unknown place, as if the birds were giving an omen.  The guineas, who Hattie said are cousins to penguins, waddled speedily around the peacocks.  Hens paced in the opening of the barn loft.  Some pecked at the dusty ground with the chicks.  It was hard to make out a nesting order.

​Hattie walked to church every Sunday morning with the intent of a guinea.  Her white hair fluffed into a feathery point from the wind.  We saw her winding the road from our car windows.  It didn’t matter if anybody offered her a ride; she only took it if there was a storm approaching.  With Albert by the hand, Hattie crossed the land of their neighbors on the way to Philadelphia.  That was the church on the Ridge.  The folks in The Knobs went to FreeWill.  

​Now, there are twenty or more churches in Granville.  Seems like when we got fast food a little over ten years ago, our town got all kinds of religion, too.  The town square is eighteen miles from the interstate on the outskirts of the county line.  That interstate has become its own town and brought all sorts of businesses, including churches, our way.  But back then, everybody went to either Philadelphia or FreeWill.

​“How-dy,” Hattie said when she walked into the church.  She gazed around the pews, smiling at everyone.  The young folks thought she was trying to copy Minnie Pearl until Brother Turner, our preacher, set them straight.

​“Hattie’s been saying that her whole life,” he said.  “When she was just a little thing, her momma brought her into town for the fair.  Her momma always won the talent shows because she could imitate any bird.  And, Hattie introduced her with that famous, ‘Howdy.’  We all think that Ms. Pearl must have visited Granville for one of our fairs.”

​Hattie sat with her three oldest friends on the back pew.  Philadelphia was a small church, only ten pews deep on both sides of the aisle.  The congregation filled a little, red brick building with white wooden trim that made a point above the doors.  The church sat on a hill that met Shake-rag and was covered in pink phlox.  ​

​Hattie sat next to the aisle.  She kept her pocket book and her dish for dinner under the pew in front of her.  At Philadelphia, we had a dinner on the ground nearly every Sunday.  After Hattie settled in and addressed her friends, she would bite off a plug of tobacco.  Hattie’s father stripped tobacco all over the Ridge, so she had a liking for that plant her whole life.  Even during the Sunday service, Hattie chewed twists of King B.  She carried two handkerchiefs.  One covered a small, metal can; after she spit the plant’s brown juice into it, she wiped her mouth with the other one.  While everybody else sang during the service, Hattie tapped a beat with her foot and chewed tobacco.  

​It seemed like out of nowhere the state had made a visit to the Wheeler property and condemned the house as unfit to live in.  They bulldozed the little tilted shack with a crackling shove and set a doublewide on top of a decent foundation.  Of course, they made an overall reform of her property and filled in the old cellar.  The only thing they left on the Wheeler land that belonged there was the tobacco barn and the birds.  Hattie would have never changed things if someone hadn’t called the state.  No one could understand why someone had complained.  It was a shame since Hattie was over eighty by then, and no one ever cared before.  

​Some suspected Albert had called the state on his own mother.  They said that he must be worried about her getting so old and using that wood stove through the winter.  Plus, he was fighting the first of his cancer at the time.  Somebody had heard Albert say his cancer was preventing him from patching the floors and toting water over to the house in the winter.  But, that seemed like a rumor and most of us knew Albert wouldn’t turn on Hattie.  Everybody on the Ridge knew he had offered to build her a new house or buy her a trailer.  She never went for those deals.  She made it plain to him and everybody else that she liked her place, running water or not, just the way Junior left it. 

​Hattie lived five years in the new doublewide with an indoor bathroom before she slipped on the kitchen linoleum a few months back and broke her hip.  Albert passed two years ago.  After the cancer spread to his liver, he couldn’t fight through another round of chemotherapy treatments.  When Hattie broke her hip, it was up to us to tell her she had to go from the hospital to the nursing home.  We knew that modular home had been too level for Hattie.  Every time she showed up at Philadelphia, she had another bruise somewhere.  But, she always laughed about it, saying she would get used to walking the straight and narrow.

STOP & Bask in the Completion of Any Miles

I kept going. I told myself that was enough downtime. I told myself this was less training, much less at thirty miles per week. After all, I had run over 100km in twenty-seven hours on a mountain, a feat that I never thought this short human could achieve. I was stunned, probably. Nothing sank or stopped. I told myself, “what’s next is…” There was no question of “what’s next?” I told myself to stick with the plan. The month after the ultra, I published a book, THE ADVENTURES TO PAWNASSUS (November 2019) and planned a book launch. Friends, family, strangers, dogs…we laughed and played trivia about health, dogs, yoga, and books. I made up the game. There were prizes.

And then, I drafted a chunk of another book, about 40,000 words in the month of November. And, carried on with my life—family, school pick up and drop off, sports, teaching yoga, teaching Religious Exploration, other projects, accepting submissions for volume three of the yoga book, attending awards ceremonies….

Around this time, I went outside by the vitex plants for meditation. I had become increasingly infatuated with vitex after writing a short and strange fairytale, “Where Bees Sleep”, in which the plants offer a portal to another world. It’s in a bonus section, “The Changeling Stories”, in the back of The Adventures to Pawnassus. I was mesmerized by the peacefulness under the plants where hundreds of bees hung upside down while sleeping on the purple flower blooms. Dew covered the plants and the bees. Even if I blew a breath into the eyes of the bees, they slept on, as if they were bats, dangling from each stalk’s tiny blossoms and facing the rising sun. I tried to go out early in the morning before daybreak truly warmed them. The ripe moments enthralled me, and I was convinced that I was increasingly onto them. The frost crystals and sunrise invited me outside to continue.

So, of course, when the opportunity presented itself, I was ready to teach yoga at the Montgomery Bell Ringer Ultra and run the 50km. About seven weeks had passed since the Cloudsplitter. I felt great teaching yoga the night before the race. I stayed close by at my parents’ house. The next morning gave us perfect early winter conditions. Not too cold, no snow, a little mud and fog. I was exuberant. I ran with pure joy and waved to my parents through checkpoints. I felt alive and happy, and I tripped. No problem. I trip often. Something felt tingling, almost burning through my body, as I carried on and focused on each step forward. I tried to shake it off. I snagged my toes on a few places but managed to stay off the ground, lurching suddenly forward sometimes. I walked for a few minutes and grounded until everything felt steady and ready to go again. Slowly, I trotted, faster, a little pickup, until it was alright. I settled into my stride, then I tripped and fell. I fell hard. My chest barreled into a tree branch. I was up and going, but I couldn’t seem to breathe any life into my legs with momentum. I tripped again and the pulse sent a shock of heat and fear through my face. My feet kept tripping on everything. I walked. I walked, trying not to ask too many questions, staving off the, “Why so many falls?” concern of my inner wisdom. I trotted again, passed a Santa Claus in the forest, and that made me laugh. High five, running. I regained my confidence, knowing I was headed out of this section soon. I made it to an aid station, distance from the mountain bike trails, and I was refocused.

Okay, I was going to be fine. I refueled, talked to some people at the aid station, saw my parents, and headed out, taking my time. I was going through the motions but instead of recovering as I usually could while going slowly through the process, I felt more and more depleted. I stumbled and fell a few more times, just while walking and once while taking a picture. I tried all of the checklist–I was hydrated, I was fueled, I had electrolytes, and I tried my usual program in a pinch–gum, music, that tree up there, lucky to be in motion, gratitude list, counting breaths, taking pictures. Usually, one in that list will fix everything and the bliss of running can resume for a while. This time, the unexpected happened: Chills. Shaking. “No!” That’s the worst anytime, but nothing worked to make them stop. I ran to get warm and fell again, sprawled out around by the lake. “It doesn’t make sense when it isn’t even that cold, and I haven’t even gone very far compared,” I told myself these things, teeth rattling. By this time, my frustration was at a high, but beyond that, I also knew that I was mostly frustrated because I knew that I needed to stop. I knew that I shouldn’t have run this far in a race without more time between ultras. I knew this truth suddenly was within me, and I was giving in to it. The chills and shakes made it harder for me to focus, challenging for me to keep good footing even while walking. As soon as I saw my parents at a road crossing, I got in the SUV. I called it and let the race director know that I was dropping out and going quickly to warmth. I couldn’t stop shaking and told my dad to pull over so I could throw up.

I slept for a few days and weeks, really. I mourned the loss of the second half of the Bell Ringer and my love of the trails that I wanted to run so much. I yelled at myself, but went back to sleep. I was bruised, hobbling, and sore from falling so often. I completely paused my running and writing. I slept until 1 pm. My husband picked up the pieces that I had to sit down for a while.
I allowed the exhaustion to take over, but it made me sad. Sweating is inspiration for me, and running influences my mind and that determines how and when I write. “I have an addiction,” I told my husband. “I need to sweat and I’m an endorphin junkie for it, and I don’t know how to get through this. I feel so much happier after I’ve been active.” I didn’t enjoy the plunge of rest, the deep ravine that came after the mountain. I had expected the Cloudsplitter 100km (actually 69 miles) to crush me while I was there, but it was like a hungry ghost in waiting, pausing, lingering, and unexpectedly, I was hit with the weight and depth of it. I suppose that you can’t go into places like that without coming out of them a little torn for the wear, but I thought maybe I’d made it, been given a lucky pass that had allowed me to do just that.

This assumption wasn’t correct. I learned an important lesson in my own training, and that’s the length of total rest and relaxation that I need between big moments of exertion. My body’s chemistry was all mixed up, and I hadn’t recognized that the moment was ripe for rest. My hormones, my vitamin and mineral levels, everything needed time to replenish. Finishing a book and drafting a new one are mentally draining and that also depletes the resources of the body as well as feelings of vitality and peak performance. I didn’t feel typical feelings of failure because I know better than that. Yet, I still felt plagued by my lack of discernment to realize what I was asking from my body, but I also felt satisfied at allowing myself to go through the process naturally, with the plan that I thought was good for me, especially since it was my first ultra of this caliber at the same time as the growth of my writing practice.

Without trying the other ultra so close to the previous finish, I wouldn’t have known what I needed regarding a deeper level of rest. I would have wondered “what if?” had I not pushed myself with all of the activities at that time.

The process led me here, to the decision that I don’t want to repeat that learning experience, and I will give myself adequate rest between action. After over a month of rest and relaxation, which included walks and mild core exercises, I am finally recharged inside. I picked up my cross training, something recommended to help my running by G who I met during the Cloudsplitter. I started biking about ten hours a week, and I love it. I’m back running on the trails, too, but with less mileage right now. I took my running to the treadmill so that I can evaluate it. It works like sensory deprivation therapy for me–running inside on a treadmill facing a block wall, but when I turn the treadmill, there’s a window where I can see the vitex, a reminder to rest. I can focus on my body without any of the distractions of the trail for some of my training.

Before this happened, I continued to increase my trail running mileage and writing output in order to achieve more goals. I would make it to a milestone and plan for the next one, then keep moving. I didn’t stop to truly celebrate. I didn’t stop to soak in the rewards on a deeper level, one that’s rejuvenating for the whole body. In my evaluations, I also realized that happened around the time when I stopped drinking alcohol. While not drinking is wonderful for my training and focus, I didn’t realize how much celebratory events truly are intertwined with alcohol. When the drinks got pitched from my experience, my celebrations no longer included the rest that often came with time off for drinks.

So, I started going through the list of what provided me with rest and inspiration, as well as what made me feel celebratory—-being in the presence of my family and strolling along without a task, laughing with my husband, watching and experiencing dance, music, and art performances, simply observing in nature for no reason, eating fresh fruits and vegetables, eating cake, building bonfires, dancing, and playing on playgrounds. I’ve been enjoying all of those, and the awareness that it is satisfying to stop and bask in completion without looking forward, simply being tired and happy at the end of rewarding work.

Note: The Montgomery Bell Ringer Ultra 50km is a beautiful and fun race that I have completed in the past. Here’s a blog about that experience.